2 BIG MISTAKES PLUS 1

So many things happened in the past two weeks but I was so lazy to write about anything.  The news were frustrating.  More bad news actually happened than good news (ugh, are there any?). Most of the local bad news though, if you guys noticed, have a common denominator; buses and cops - and they sure do give me some anxiety now. Buses now, if they don't fall into cliffs or ravines, they run over some cars and kill beauty queens, or they get hijacked and end up with dead tourists.  And the police now, they're either torturing the suspects inside their stations, or they're outside responding to a hostage-drama only to show off their shits.  The most saddest of the sad news (yes, very redundant - to express it in its super-superlative degree), happened just last Monday in Manila.  Did you notice, one date, August 23, 2010, strangely connected two Filipinos in two different parts of the world with two "big mistakes", and placed the Filipino nation, again, in the headline of the international media. If you're a Filipino, or a HK citizen, or if you watched this year's Miss Universe pageant - you sure know one, or maybe both, of the people I am talking about.  The one at the Quirino Grandstand admitted his mistake (in a way, I think) by writing the words “BIG MISTAKE TO CORRECT A BIG WRONG DECISION" on a piece of paper he posted on the bus door he hijacked. He knew he was doing a very big mistake.  Maybe, if the chance gave him more time to think rationally, or if he didn't become too emotional, he could have considered other options to clear his spoiled reputation. The other, on the other hand, is still in denial. She probably really answered the final question honestly (that she never did any major-major mistake in her 22 yrs of existence), but the way she delivered her answer was very unrefined, thus, sounded very unsatisfactory to most. She could have won the crown. But it's ok - she made it to the top 5 of the Miss Universe. Let's give her a pat on the back, she deserves it.

Miss Philippines during the "Final Question" in the Miss Universe 2010 - she won 4th runner up.  Not bad.

BLAH.

Well, no negative comments will be put up here about the incident at the Quirino Grandstand in Manila (errr...I think I just did above). Many already put the topic in their blogs and I don't want to add up to the gazillions of negative comments about it. Many bloggers who share the same sentiments and opinions with mine have been heard. Besides, I think I already gave enough of my opinion of the Philippine National Police in Facebook. Much has been said and that's more than enough. The PNP already admitted their mistake and what's important is that they recognized it (dang they really should), and hopefully - they learned from it.

SWAT Assault Team during the you-know-what

ENOUGH.

That's the word I have in my mind when I clicked on the "Deactivate" link in facebook. Yes, I wanted to put my facebook account down for good.  Facebook has been consuming much of my time when I'm in front of the computer, and it's not really healthy!  Also, there are many things (and some people) in facebook that I no longer wish to see. Has any of you thought of cancelling your account? Just to give you an idea, this is what you will see when you click the "deactivate" link in FB:

"Your-Friends-Will-Miss-You page of FB.  This is what you will see when you try to deactivate your FB account."

It showed me some random photos of some people I have in my friends list. Chris, Bghie, Belle, and Len were my colleagues in CVG. Luther, aka Kuya Boy, was my father-slash-friend in HSBC. And facebook said these people will miss me if I deactivate my account... hahaha! XD Well, I must admit facebook was successful in stopping me from cancelling my account. I realized I still want to be connected with some people. And also, facebook is where I get my social updates. I don't often text my friends, and not everyone in my friends list are in the Philippines, so I guess it is best to keep my account active and just access it once in a while. One thing is sure; I will try to decrease my web presence.

SAD.

I got a news this morning in facebook that I didn't want to hear. I didn't expect it. I got a text message that confirmed the news too.  Sniffle.  Let's put it this way: I was so busy trying to squeeze myself in inside a jeepney that was already full. I thought the next jeep in line will save a seat for me. I was wrong.  The jeep at the back took off right after I get off the jeepney in front.  The news came this morning, and now I'm late.

I thought she was willing to wait.

Mon Objet D'Art Part 2

I'm hot. Yes, I still feel feverish and I am not really in the best mood, but heck - I've got new paintings to show and I'm just too darn excited to flaunt them here.

Here's part 2 of mon' objet d'art:

"Efetsem" oil on 30x20 canvas

Above is my first attempt to create a nude painting. I call this "Efetsem". It's oil on 30x20 pre-streched canvas. Let me tell you: the title is derived from FHM. Got it?

"Doon sa Hacienda Estrella" oil on 15x20 canvas

I call the above painting "Doon sa Hacienda Estrella". It's oil on 15x20 inch pre-stretched white canvas. Estrella is my mother's name. I may not be able give my mother a house and lot, well, at least in a painting there's a Hacienda on her name.

"Frustrated Circles" oil on 10x15 canvas

The third painting is a failed attempt to create an abstract using the excess of the paints I used in Hacienda. Arrggh. I didn't get the look I was initially trying to create - and it got me really frustrated. So instead of throwing the canvas, I just played around with the remaining paint and created this circles of frustration (and in frustration). Okay, I know it doesn't really hold a sense of art. I'm aware of it too so you don't have to shove it at my face.

"Under the Bloody Sky" oil on 18x24 canvas

The painting above is titled "Under the Bloody Sky", oil on 18x24 inch pre-stretched white canvas. This is the last work I finished and, so far, my favorite. I'm not really a painter, mind.  I'm just a regular dummy who got nothing better to do at home. I think I already mentioned in my previous posts how I came to like oil painting. I'm enjoying it. It may sound a cliche, but painting has become a passion for me - an outlet for my creative juice and for my pent-up emotions and frustrations. I have so many of those.

I'm still not working, but hopefully I get to get a job before the month ends. All the bumming and doing nothing at home were, in a way, covered by my new hobby. My first 3 paintings were made during the day, and the rest were made at night - when all the people at home were sleeping. For one, I hate being distracted, and two, I like isolation (when I want it). Don't mistake that for being anti-social because I'm not. I also go to parties and I never say no to any inuman. But most of the time, I prefer to be alone. Being moody is part of my entirety and I get distracted and irritated easily. I remember how distracted I was when I was doing my draped woman painting outside, in the garage. The house next door was being renovated and the construction workers' attentions were at me, or should I say at my draped woman, while I was painting. I wanted to scream do-your-job-and-stop-watching-me-you-dimwits!!! But I didn't. I hate being watched.

Saw the movie Grown Ups last week.  The movie was fun, and it sort of brought me some good memories of my childhood. I watched the movie alone as it wasn't planned. I got irritated at home (i'm not going to tell here why) so I decided to just go out and chillax before I lose my temper and explode like a loaded cannonball (this is how a friend describes me when asked about my temper). With today's technology, most kids now play indoors, thus, missing the fun of getting dirt on their faces and feet and building "libag" on their necks and underarms, haha. Gross. I played almost all the known larong-kalye. I played holen, tumbang preso, tsato, taguan, habulan, basketbol, patintero, text (comic skits from local movies) and cards (nba, trump, magic), trumpo, pogs (yung sa coke), tatsing, goma, kalog, gagamba (spider derby), bike, and the list goes on and on. Favorite ko yung pagpunta namin sa Aplaya (part of Laguna da Bay in Alabang) kapag baha, haha. To a child, playing at the lake during a flood is as fun as swimming in a pool. It was fun, pero isang beses napalo ako ng tatay ko kasi nahuli na naliligo kami sa Aplaya. Haaaay... I remember the days. Ay, hahaha, nga pala, pinaka favorite ko pala yung pag doorbell namin sa mga bahay-bahay sabay takbo. Wooo hooo!  It isn't a game but it was fun!  The adrenaline rush it brought us! There's still a lot of games I din't mention. I wonder how my childhood friends are doing now. This is a long shot, but to Ace, Noel, Robin, Bryan, Joel (na nakasuntukan ko ng 2 beses kasi siya ang nagsumbong sa tatay ko na nagpunta kami sa aplaya hahaha...childhood rage, you know), and to the rest of the boys and girls of L&B2 in the 90's...sana ok lang kayong lahat.

I am over a quarter of a century old, and this qualifies me on the late-twenties-bracket.  Geez. I want to stay young and be forever 20. I'm afraid to grow old. It scares me.

It's almost midnight. I'm done.  This isn't really a good way to end a post, but hey this is my blog.  Bite me.